confused but faithful

Right now I sit in my room in the usual chair in the usual place listening to the usual music doing the usual thing. Not much has changed since I went back to Chicago and came back. Saw a few friends and just had some good food. But sitting here I feel just so alone and empty, something I haven't felt in a while but as bad as it feels, it's finally setting me straight. In this time of emptiness I'm finally taking my devotional book which i haven't touched since i came back to Purdue and opening where I left off. I know it's not much but this sadness is the push I need to finally get back on track. I've had a lot of time to think about what has happened this past year between all the people I've loved and I'm really surprised at what has happened to some of the relationships. However, I strongly believe that God made and broke all the relationships that he did for a reason. Even if I can't see any reason for him to I know he knows better than i do and I'm gonna hold on to that till the day I die.